Hello!

[sylviakelt]

Ohkay, an introduction... Hmm.

Well, I already know that I'm a vampire hybrid, but I don't exactly know what of. I'd like to think that I'm a vampire/angelkin, but I'm not sure. I have a very strong attraction to all things angelic, and I also have a (according to others, unhealthy) sympathy and attraction to all things demonic. My guardian angel, when I've asked what I am, says that I'm a "Lover", but I'm not sure what that means.

My brother says that I might be a star seed. I've read a bit about it, and some of the star seed information applies to me, but at the same time, some of the star seed information just seems like general information associated with any sort of awakening.

I'm very confused, and so I'm on an epic quest to find answers.

I love music. I get terribly irritable and don't function properly if I'm not listening to music. I'm addicted to music, and I'd like to be a music teacher, though others say that I should aim higher. I also love art, in any form. I love to draw and color things, make music, make and write stories(gosh, do I love stories!) and poetry. That's right, I don't just write stories and poems, I MAKE them. I also love being around people, but I'm also terrified of people, though if I'm with certain persons that I'm very close with, it isn't so bad.

I call myself pagan, justifying my faith by my faith in all of the world around me. I don't have the time, nor the money to perform rituals, but I believe that that does not make my faith any less than other pagans that do.

Um... If you have any questions, feel free to ask! :]

[Seraphyna]

Welcome I think the major problem at the moment is that you seem to be asking other people what they think you are, while they cannot tell you. What you may or may not be is something you can only figure out yourself. Other people may provide theories, give you feedback, etc. but they may do more harm than good in the end.

It's very possible that you're angelic and also a vampire. Many angels find themselves with vampiric tendencies in this life, most often due to binds and wards that limit their energy in order to keep them bound to physical form.

All in all I'd recommend meditating on the inner you. A giant dose of introspection might shake something lose or at least exclude a possibility or two. The only thing I *can* tell you for a fact is that the only person who can know who and what you are is you.

[non-sequitur aeon]

Ditto seraphyna and welcome

[sylviakelt]

I understand what you're saying. Most of the time when I meditate though(I actually meditate a lot), most of the thoughts I have seem too extreme to be realistic and are more like stories. I'm trying to write them down though, hoping that I might be able to find some sort of deeper meaning to them.

Also, thanks for the welcomes. :]

[scars]

Welcome.

[Bonnie]

Jan 26, 2009 19:45:55 GMT -5 sylviakelt said:

most of the thoughts I have seem too extreme to be realistic and are more like stories. I'm trying to write them down though, hoping that I might be able to find some sort of deeper meaning to them.

Just because something seems extreme doesn't mean its not actually a memory - personally my memories are very "extreme" and sound like they belong in a story...which is why you won't generally find me posting my Past Life Memories anywhere - I'm sick of getting bashed for them.

I agree with Sera - it sounds like you've been relying on people to tell you who and what you are, instead of discovering for yourself.

Personally, I started off thinking I was a Vampire, and then a Vampire/Angelic hybrid...and then an Angel, then a "Dark" Angel... And eventually came to the realization of Neutral Polymorphic Celestial. Took about 5 years to go through all that.

My version of self-discovery came from writing down what I at first thought was Lucid dreams, or astral projection. After meditation and doing some Tarot spreads, I began to think perhaps they were Past Life memories... And then in 2007, I found out my boyfriend, who I'd known for 3 months, had been having the same dreams as I have had, but since we were both toddlers.

Best thing you can do is examine everything and take it all in, and pick it apart.

A good thing to take into consideration, is that your past life memories may or may not take place on this planet. Personally, very few of my past life memories take place on this planet, most places I remember are so technologically and magickally advanced that its hard to even believe such civilizations ever existed on this planet.

Anyway, welcome to the forum! If you need any tarot readings, let me know.

[non-sequitur aeon]

oh oh! tarot reading for me!

which deck do you use?

[sylviakelt]

Oho, I love tarot. I would appreciate that in the future, but I always have trouble coming up with questions. If I have something that's truly troubling me (aside of my epic quest of self-discovery), I shall seek the advice of your readings.

The thought that there's a chance that past life memories don't just occur on this planet is a comforting thought to have. Most of my potential memories all happen in the same place(s) with generally the same people.

And I'm also glad that I have someone who I'm very close to that I discuss my "stories" and these things with. Her and I connect on so many levels, it's almost ridiculous, even mentally.

And thank you for the welcome(s). x] Four welcomes may not be much, but seeing as how inactive this forum seems to be as of late, it's still comforting.

[Bonnie]

I have three decks, but mainly I use two of the three - "The Manga Tarot" its pretty... And I think my other one is called the Gilded Tarot. Also very pretty. >.>

Requests for readings can be PM'd to me.

Hmm, yes, we are fairly inactive. Half of us can't seem to come up with anything to post. XD

[Miyana]

Sylviakelt:
Welcome, first off.


and I know this may just be me nitpicking... but when you say Hybrid (used in the same sentence as vampire), I understand that you mean Vampire and Otherkin, but... and this is probably my own confusion as well, but are you aware that in the vampire community a Hybrid is an individual that's essentially both Sang and Psy/Psi?

I'm just a little curious if you meant this sort of Hybrid as well.

If I misinterpreted, my apologies, by all means. just curious.