Post by Ashmodai on Mar 22, 2008 10:16:56 GMT -5
Hello there,
the title means "my name is Ashmodai".
I stumbled into this forum by chance and was happy to find a place where people seem to know what they talk about and are not roleplaying or claiming that one kin is better than the other.
It seems to be fairly nice here and thus I decided to stay.
As I already told, my name is Ashmodai. In this life I am 35 (since last month ), female and living in Germany near Cologne.
I was rather often incarnated (is that the right word?) but this is my first time as a woman.
Well, Ashmodai is a male demon, I suppose that's why. (Male and gay - I hope that does not offend anyone.)
I hope you do not believe what tradition has made of my name. I am not brutal, I have no three heads, I usually don't destroy.
My "job" is (as a demon, not as a human) to bring love to the souls in need, to open their eyes to their own beauty and to guide those who are lost back into light.
So I am quite light but of course can be mean sometimes and have my own very special kind of humor. I act as a counterbalance resp. demonic counterpart to a certain angel who serves the same cause as I do and is one of my soulpartners. (Not that I have that many - it's only two. )
I know about the origins of my soul now since...hmmm....1.5 years, I suppose. I always knew that there must be something different...had "strange sights", saw "ghosts" etc. It was 2006 when I first was told by someone that he saw wings. From that day on I heard that more often and I was told I was an angel.
It was a bit weird at first but felt not that false, so I accepted that because I felt my wings and had the feeling I knew some other angels as well. (I do. One of them is Kariel who joined here today as well, another is my soulpartner and counterpart.)
I was lucky my best friend (and now flatmate) and I learned about being otherkin at the same time and always had each other to talk to. Nevertheless it was kind of a hard time, but finally I gladly accepted it. (And I already knew that my soul is male.)
Until one day I saw myself clearly in the bathroom mirror all over sudden. Reddish-blond hair, short cut and a cowlick above the forehead, very blue eyes, pointed eyeteeth, about 6'3'' tall, medieval clothing, large bat-like wings and fairly buff. ;D
I tried to make my avatar as close to my appearance as possible. It resembles me to almost 100% now.
Usually I wear dark-brown trousers, a beige-coloured corded shirt with loose sleeves and a brown doublet with a broad brown belt that has three lions on its golden buckle. In addition to that fawn leather boots and a large two-handed sword.
My wings sometimes have an orange glow around them, my eyes do glow yellow-orange at certain times ( ;D ) and I can show little flames in my pupils.
It was obvious I am no angel and so I was told the very same day by my soul's fathers together with my name.
At first I was shocked and feared "Geez, I am evil, bad..." But this is utter nonsense. Being a demon does not make anyone bad and there are as many evil and mean angels as demons. I learned that quickly to my luck.
I am glad I met several angels and other souls in this life that I know from past lives and from where I come from.
Many lives I spent in England so far and I am happy to be shown loads of memories since a while now.
Well...I don't know what else to say...If some more things to say here cross my mind I will do so.
Fush B'shlomo,
Ashmodai
the title means "my name is Ashmodai".
I stumbled into this forum by chance and was happy to find a place where people seem to know what they talk about and are not roleplaying or claiming that one kin is better than the other.
It seems to be fairly nice here and thus I decided to stay.
As I already told, my name is Ashmodai. In this life I am 35 (since last month
), female and living in Germany near Cologne.I was rather often incarnated (is that the right word?) but this is my first time as a woman.
Well, Ashmodai is a male demon, I suppose that's why. (Male and gay - I hope that does not offend anyone.)
I hope you do not believe what tradition has made of my name. I am not brutal, I have no three heads, I usually don't destroy.
My "job" is (as a demon, not as a human) to bring love to the souls in need, to open their eyes to their own beauty and to guide those who are lost back into light.
So I am quite light but of course can be mean sometimes and have my own very special kind of humor. I act as a counterbalance resp. demonic counterpart to a certain angel who serves the same cause as I do and is one of my soulpartners. (Not that I have that many - it's only two.
)I know about the origins of my soul now since...hmmm....1.5 years, I suppose. I always knew that there must be something different...had "strange sights", saw "ghosts" etc. It was 2006 when I first was told by someone that he saw wings. From that day on I heard that more often and I was told I was an angel.
It was a bit weird at first but felt not that false, so I accepted that because I felt my wings and had the feeling I knew some other angels as well. (I do. One of them is Kariel who joined here today as well, another is my soulpartner and counterpart.)
I was lucky my best friend (and now flatmate) and I learned about being otherkin at the same time and always had each other to talk to. Nevertheless it was kind of a hard time, but finally I gladly accepted it. (And I already knew that my soul is male.)
Until one day I saw myself clearly in the bathroom mirror all over sudden. Reddish-blond hair, short cut and a cowlick above the forehead, very blue eyes, pointed eyeteeth, about 6'3'' tall, medieval clothing, large bat-like wings and fairly buff. ;D
I tried to make my avatar as close to my appearance as possible. It resembles me to almost 100% now.
Usually I wear dark-brown trousers, a beige-coloured corded shirt with loose sleeves and a brown doublet with a broad brown belt that has three lions on its golden buckle. In addition to that fawn leather boots and a large two-handed sword.
My wings sometimes have an orange glow around them, my eyes do glow yellow-orange at certain times ( ;D ) and I can show little flames in my pupils.
It was obvious I am no angel and so I was told the very same day by my soul's fathers together with my name.
At first I was shocked and feared "Geez, I am evil, bad..." But this is utter nonsense. Being a demon does not make anyone bad and there are as many evil and mean angels as demons. I learned that quickly to my luck.
I am glad I met several angels and other souls in this life that I know from past lives and from where I come from.
Many lives I spent in England so far and I am happy to be shown loads of memories since a while now.
Well...I don't know what else to say...If some more things to say here cross my mind I will do so.
Fush B'shlomo,
Ashmodai
