Samielleus The Seraph's Notebook - Rated: "D"

[Samielleus Prince]

Introduction

Welcome to my notebook everyone. Here, as the intention of this forum, I will post my version of truth, my version of my past life story, my thoughts and etc.

DEBATE AND DISCUSSION IS ENCOURAGED![/i]

Since i'm always looking to see different angles, and think outside the box I'd encourage you all to respectufully challenge my ideas. If something seems fishy, or inccorect, or if you get any strong feelings about something I say please post your thoughts. Help me grow!

- Sah-mee-e-loose :3

[Samielleus Prince]

1 - Layers of Self Theory (updated 12/24/2007)

The whole soul mate thing has never jived well with me, though some aspects of it may be explained, at least in my mind, if the layerstheory is applied.

The layers theory, though it may not be original to me I didn't take it from anyone consciously, is essentially that we don't exist as one singular entity, but as a layer of beings in alignment, that when together comprise a whole entity, but when apart can still function as singular entities searching for its lost sections of self. These layers can represent a timeline, or changes in a soul's existence throught its time as a soul, sort of like when you dig deep into the earth, you see different sedimentary layers from different time periods in the area. The layers make the land, though the land is a singular thing.

Think of yourself as an onion (yes I got this from Shrek but its the easiest way to think of it). With all your layers together, you are an onion. If you peel away some layers, you are still an onion, still smell and act like an onion, yet part of you is missing. The layers removed, too, are still an onion but like the rest of it, it is not whole. Could this explain why so many kin feel like there is many facets of themselves they can't explain? Could this also explain why so many of us feel as if there is something missing in themselves, to the point where finding one's "soul mate" is a pressing issue? I know my layers were at one time separate, and thanks to humanity and some very special celestials, I was able to get myself back in order. But I remember, in one of my lives where i was only 1/3 of my self, having these horrible feelings of separation and loss. that there was a part of me I couldn't
find, that was missing.

This relates back to the idea of the layers of the earth in accordence to one's souls's history. When I started my existence I had no layers, I had a solid soul, a solid spirit. I had to keep one of my sets of wings tucked very tightly in becuase my soul had no protection, no experience layers of which to protect the fragile thing. This goes along with the idea that my "job" had nothing to do with battles and I had very little interaction outside of heaven, or even my close family and friends. But due to a turning point in my soul's history I asked God to make me strong, make me a nobel warrior so that I could better love and protect the one I loved (at least that was my logic at the time) and so God was mercyful and changed me. In that change I gained two layers and my personality changed. I was no longer o overtly fragile, I had some protection and I could use my third set of wings. When those layers became seperate, though I couldn't remeber myself in my mortal form, I felt so alone, I felt lonley for my missing layers. In each sucessive life thereafter I gained a new layer. Thankfully, in this life, my layers are intact and I have no want or need to look for "something missing".

[scars]

Very interesting... can i be parfait?.